"Dreams Of Foregone Times"

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!! Bunch of kisses...

It's my first time to feel certain that it's already new year... Last year was a huge trauma, I wasn't  as simple as broken, HEY I'VE LOST MY SOUL. And there is nothing worse than feeling that everything is perfect only to find out that it isn't how you thought. I have spent all my time with the greatest MISTAKE of my life and that felt like being smothered, controlled, insecure and never to have my own space. And the worst part of it was my sacrifices wasn't appreciated. It has generated a pus not being able to understand all the emotions right after I was left behind. I was used and abused and I've been thinking of things I could have done differently to change everything. And I had to understand that she has made me give up my life so that she could live her life...Life would not be always fair. I've been waiting for a closure and it never surfaced until today... I realized that sometimes NO closure, IS closure. For six months, I had to dig deeper and buried myself into the grave until I found myself  back on my feet again...everything is better now. Borrowing words from somewhere... it's says that "BROKEN HEARTED" is like a broken mirror, it's better to leave it broken than trying to fix it and hurt yourself... you would only bleed yourself and even you put it back together, the traces and marks would stay there forever that wouldn't be a good one to look at. I'm so so done weeping and agonizing... I left everything that's broken in 2009 where they belongs...hahaha. Sometimes you have to guess that if You cannot solve something and tried brooding all your life, then You must know that it's no longer a problem because it's REALITY. Accept it!