THE THIRD

My head is not a happy place as you can imagine, so leave

I guess it would be a lot easier to consider your pain than face my own
I always like what I should not
I love what I could not have
My desires does not go that far
Never followed a normal design
But it would again surface a great resonance
Focused at the very most of what I can't ever,ever have 

And harbor enough ill feelings,strongly to demeaning.

Picture it on a different perspective
There is a perpetual change unsatisfied state
Eternal instinct of abomination
Represented on the history of forever...

------------DEMONICA--------------

UNTOUCHABLE WORDS

F you for talking to me
were you started everything
F you for accepting my persistent tease
now I am left with nothing
F you for leaving her for me
I never asked it
F you for snatching the bone from the Shih-tzu
and You planned I will be the next, F you both
F you for subverting my soul
I'll be your biggest fan for all
F you for saying that I should be with her
you know you're the only One I wanted
F you for arousing the Boy in me
I don't know anymore where I should be
F you for loving me so right
this is the battle I have to fight
F you for existing in my universe
You made me a wife
F you for leaving me your lies
I want my old life
F you for leaving me stain
I want my old brain
F you for getting a new replacement
You like that kind, never
F you and your untouchable words
I hate to say this but you both are perfect together
F you for stealing a living
learn the master of cheating
All I can say is F?ck You

----DEMONICA----

THE VAMPIRE SAGA......are we under spell?

After Harry Potter and LOTR breakthrough in both bookstores and cinemas, it has made most people from all walks of life congregated to the book series. And now another obsession has attacked every imagination of readers especially the teenagers...Vampire Obsession. What else? It's Stephenie Meyer's "Twilight" Saga. Recognized by The New York Times as their Editor's Choice and Publisher's Weekly as The Best Book of the Year. This is PHENOMENAL!

In 2005 Twilight first book was out in the market and it has made a huge impact since then, followed by the other three New Moon 2006, Eclipse 2007, Breaking Dawn 2008. Who else wouldn't know the story? I know even those who criticize it knows about the love story of a regular teenage girl (Bella Swan) and her vampire boyfriend (Edward Cullen)...The question is, How long would it corrupt every adolescent mind?

Well Vampire love stories already existed before. There is Bram Stroker's "Dracula" and Anne Rice's "Vampire Chronicles". But it wasn't as big as Twilight. But i can assure You.... if you really want a great deal of vampire stories, try these books. It's more profound and more detailed than Twilight.

Tomorrow November 20 would be the first day of the sequel "New Moon" in cinemas. Wow you have to reserve tickets weeks before to watch it, It's f?c#ing unbelievable! I'm planning to watch it after the freaks are sober,I guess...

Another thing about this shit...is why everybody's going gaga over Edward Cullen? I saw a video in Youtube one time, I think the background beat was created after Kanye West's original "Heartless" (gosh!What are these creeps?) singing uncanny song about Edward Cullen, the song was titled "I wanna be like Edward Cullen". And as far as I can remember the lyrics of the song though I didn't finish it 'cause it freaked me out...It says like they want to be like edward cullen....blah blah blah... Are they Gays? I just don't get it!

But what happened to "Legolas" or "Aragorn" from LOTR who used to be the hearthrob of the scene? Or "Drako" and "Hermione"?. Well Edward Cullen or Robert Pattinson in real life wasn't this big before, He Appeared on Harry Potter Book5 movie as "Cedric Diggory" and He was not as popular as He is right now. According to Media on the present time, the two most popular and most important being in the US are Pres. Barack Obama and Rob Pattinson...whoa... thay are all hypnotized by the vampire. Yeah but I think everybody loves Edward Cullen and not Rob Pattinson.

It's also damn funny because I have seen a lot of books about vampires on numerous book stores...A lot of new collection of vampire love stories, Teenage vampire stories,ect. and a lot of vampire computer games has been created, one is from Facebook and you can choose what kind of vampire you are:
The Primeval- animalistic.definitely not a good looking one, eeew...
The Noble: Someone that looks like Antonio Banderas on "Interview with the Vampire".Sexy!
The Modern Vampire: The Edward Cullen type.

hmmmm...Well to those who hates it or doesn't like the idea of Twilight being too popular, I guess you have to wait until the fourth movie is done and released, maybe Vampire era would be ceased...

I am wondering right now what would be the next BIG THING in Hollywood or in the whole world after "The vampire Saga"? which is presently the new superheroes of our imagination. Let me guess...would it be the "Wolf" saga? like a passionate and extremely HOT werewolf since the wolf's pack from twilight are really gorgeous and sexy...or a "Hunky Mummy" imagine a very good looking mummy with a body similar to Jacob's(twilight) have only half of his face bandaged and just the "thing" between his legs.That's Hot! hmmmm...or maybe it would be a modern "Frankenstein" that would star Justin Timberlake? hehe,i can't imagine. Or would it be "Zombies" saga...this time zombies should be good looking and looks clean, without the grouse cannibal eating habit they do. Or "Witches" saga, how about Angelina Jolie as the witch or Johnny Depp(He is voted as the sexiest man alive 2009). Whatever!!! the answer depends on the producers, They are the one responsible for creating all these. Hey I have nothing against "Twilight" I've read the four books and I'll be more excited to see the third book on the screen. Don't hate me Twilight fans.

29 Things I have learned in 2009

• 1) The Greatest Pleasure in the world is in your own Hands.(Masturbation:))

• 2) People would not be always loyal to you.

• 3) Pwede pa lang bilin si Pedro!

• 4) Witches really exist. (sino bang hinayupak nagpauso ng wiccan craft?)

• 5) I have discovered a new motto... "always protect yourself". (million dollar baby movie)

• 6) I have developed an obsession for the color Green. I think it is a disease.

• 7) GREEN basically means money, but it also expresses hope, renewal and growth, environment, health, fertility, healing, positive change, vitality, peace, and serenity. W-O-W :)

• 8) There are more lesbians on far far provinces, than in manila. That's a fact! Believe me.

• 9) "DL" is a lot better than chocolate.

• 10) Some of the greater things in life are unseen that's why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream.

• 11) Things don’t change. You change your way of looking, that’s all.

-Carlos Castaneda

• 12) If you smile when you are alone, then you really mean it.

- Andy Rooney

• 13) Nobody loses anything because nobody owns anything.

• 14) Life is too short or too long to live it so bad.

• 15) What I had surrendered I had lose.

• 16) No one would succeed hurting you but the one closest to your heart.

• 17) Things are not simple as one could think, you have to master all the pain and be in the ecstasy

• 18) When I stopped recognizing who I am, I FOUND MYSELF.

• 19) Christina is my new definition for Desire.

• 20) Paul is cuter when angry.
  

• 21) Unexpected Enormous Explosion happens every time I hang out with Besy Jade.

• 22) "I don't know HOW TO HANDLE things".

• 23) W.D.G Bar is infested of Dogs.I'm not gonna come back there.

• 24) Dee is a Hacker.

• 25) Emgee is the founder of all lesbians in the whole Philippines.

• 26) Money is a VIRUS.

• 27) When I got nothing to lose....I got EVERYTHING.     
  

• 28) Life can only be describe in ONE word..."CHOICE"

• 29) Satan is OMNISEXUAL.

I am Nickie Show

I am crazy, fierce, cynical, unconventional, selfish, intense, conceited and a great lover...I'm smart and creative. To others I've always been an extreme mental case.
Sometimes I want to crash things and behead anyone who would pass by...that's my inner rage that needs to burst...

People just don't get me, I know I am totally different from what they think...But I don't care if they always label me SHIT.I really don't care. Please tell me what normal is?

I have turned into a HERMIT for the past few months, I finally found the greatness of being alone or being engaged into just one-on-one interaction. I am Happy. I have realized that I don't need persons around me who would only try to impress me, people who talkshit just to get your attention and try to make you think they're better than You. These people would try to say anything without even thinking(that's what I don't really get)...These empty headed people would always try to mess up your brain and put you down. I guess they do it because they simply can't sell stupid shit. They are my triggers.

I was mourning for the dream that I could have had. Pondering over what could have been?
> Accepted!
and I am so so done thinking that I am a constant victim... Because the truth is Everybody are. So no more bullshit weeping for disappointments.

I am embracing my glory days from this moment on and thank you for reading my shit!!! I AM NICKIE SHOW.